I had a weird day. Someone I didn't think was capable of such things is doing something of which I don't approve.
How can you say mean things about people behind their backs and then be completely nice to their faces, to the point you ignore me when I try to say something to you? More than just being civil, more than just keeping appearances. You claim to despise someone, you say you can't wait until they're out of your life, but you talk to them like your best buddy and ignore me, who you call your best friend. I don't think it was conscious, but still. Thinking about why a person would act that way... hmm.
I may have to rethink some people in my life. I still love them dearly, truly, but... I don't agree with that. I am who I am all the time, I don't play the game where everyone needs to like me all the time. Maybe I misunderstood, or something. I don't know.
I was also a soloist for the Brahms Neueliebeslieder tonight... a solosit quartet did the whole thing, and we kicked ass and took names. I crashed and burned on my second solo piece thanks to the marvelous conductor, but recovered pretty smoothly and redeemed myself by saving the quartet later.
My mother wants to try to set me up with someone. I don't know how I feel about it. Not about what she's told me of him (34, nurse, Christian, dry and quirky sense of humor), but more how I feel about dating in general right now. Plus, I really kind of like someone else, and it might go somewhere. Both have their pros and cons, but I just don't know how I feel about entangling myself in someone else again. Not the dirty way, of course. I'm just getting my situation and what I want straightened out in my head. I honestly won't know til I can clear my head after I move.
We'll just see. : )