What is wrong with me?
I must have some deeply rooted psychosis that I don't deserve to be happy. Or something.
I'm really a mess, and I hate it.
PEOPLE SHOULD NOT BE ABLE TO SCREW YOU UP THIS BAD.
A PERSON SHOULD EITHER BE ABLE TO CONTROL FALLING IN LOVE OR FALLING OUT OF IT.
IT'S NOT FAIR TO COMPLETELY LACK CONTROL.
I need to fall out of love. My own love is putting me asunder.
I'm destroying my own self. And I don't know what to do.